Looking back over the last ten years  sometimes  a struggle  with  dead –  ends. Most times rewarding and piecing together another vital piece of  the puzzle.  ALL THE WHILE LEARNING.  It  was ten years ago  today  when I started noticing within my father that the cancer and chemo was taking it’s toll within. ALSO Realizing what cancer can do to a family at the beginning, during  and what it might be like in the aftermath.

   Within my aftermath … I was severely depressed and wanted to make it better for everyone. It was the helpless feeling that was driving me to begin researching this dreadful disease.  I  began praying more,  attending Mass      more  at  Basilica & National Shrine of  Our Lady of Consolation   in Carey, Ohio where miracles are known to happen.

     The Shrine in Carey  is where I believe the miracle began of  meeting      new people that also came into my life.  Always thinking what where the chances of  meeting  up with these incredible people… same place in time. For instance … the Chinaman Mant from Kettering, OHIO. whom walked into my life in a book store and immediately asking, ” what questions do  you have that needs answered.”

   Always a new person Like the Nurse that explained her take on Cancer       &  Chemotherapy and what she had witness over her 30 year career.  This  my last ten years has been quite interesting to say the least.  On this same date 4 years ago which seems like yesterday.  It was on this date being my first installment into this website. With time becoming a personal blog for the almost  4,000 members in our Facebook Group.

   It was Social media … where I came to realize that no matter how much one researches about  this dreadful disease,   Cancer still  and  always will suck.  What I learned on Facebook  was  so much more then one could ever image. With some people criticizing my grammar, beliefs in what I believe and try to do.  With good people out numbering the bad.  🙂

    As I truly began patrolling the numerous cancer groups on Facebook learning from others.  I  did  learn  those  that become cancer free… do so through perseverance, and with a strong belief in themselves and in GOD.   It is within your Body, Mind and Spirit where true healing occurs.  I soon realize that what may work for one individual may not for another. True healing  comes   from  within your heart  and  you  have  to  will  yourself cancer free.

    Within Solitarius,  I have members blogs and how they overcame the demon inside with many similarities. That being said, no matter what or how different the treatment was in their personal healing journey.  They truly believed in themselves and that what they where doing would work  for themselves. Always researching and always knowing what their next step would be intuitively. 

  Some experts will tell you that cancer derives from the Solitarius Stem Limbic area in your brain where emotion begins.  Rather it is a Sense of Lost, Longing,  Sadness,  Anger … et cetera.  Some experts also believe …  cancer begins at the emotional level … and if that is the case it also needs     to be corrected there.  I  believe   once   you   calm this region of  the brain true healing begins. Therefore, The Cut, Burn & Poison approach without supplementation should be rethought by the medical profession.

Healing doesn’t just happen–there are no short cuts or quick fixes;                    it is fundamental to have patience.

•Identify what your block is, what you get stuck on; a habit, behavior,

addiction?

•Find out who can help and if that doesn’t work, find someone else;

DO NOT give up hope, keep trying.

•You have to believe it is possible that you will get better–keep faith, find

faith or hope―–MAKE that your intention.

•Just because something didn’t work doesn’t mean you failed, you just need

to find another way, explore other options.

•It takes commitment to truly heal–You have to trust and respect the process,

and surrendering to the process most often allows for the greatest result.

As you go forward with your own path of healing, consider the following.

MIND: Get out of the suffering mentality and resolve to set positive intentions;

use affirmations, set goals, find support.

BODY: Your body is amazing; it is constantly doing so many things right and

without fail; when things do go wrong, be gentle, loving and grateful for all that

it does right–focus on this instead of whatever the challenge is.

SPIRIT: Take time to be still and allow for the guidance of spirit. This can help

the healing process, it can illumine what should be addressed. It is through

faith that we can find patience and understanding. If we are guided by spirit

then everything we are faced with has a purpose. Find these reasons and learn

to heal.

When it comes to healing:

Believe that healing is possible, that you are worthy and able.

Find a spiritual practice.

Take care of your body.

Be kind to your mind.

Don’t stop, don’t give up.

Exclusive interview with the imminent Professor Rustum Roy prior to his departure     from this reality. Professor. Roy held five professorships and wrote more than 1,000 papers,  articles  and books.  In  this  interview  he  discusses  whole  person  healing,     Qigong,  Bigu, spiritual healing, John of God (João Teixeira de Faria – João de Deus), quantum physics, alternative medicine other fascinating topics.  This video is a rare interview with a most brilliant and important person.

SEGMENTS:

The Right Way of Looking at Alternative Medicine – 3:03
The Tragedy of the Western “Scientific” Medicine – 6:40
Quantum Mechanics:A New Science of Healing – 13:08
John of God and Breaking the Laws of Medicine – 17:03
Qi Gong with Dr. Effie Chow and the Bigu State – 22:33
The Meridian System and Accupuncture: An Excellent Science – 32:15
The Future of Hi-Tech Medicine – 37:11
Spiritual Healing – 47:07
Vibrations and Brainwave Healing – 48:24
Focusing on the Person Rather than the Disease – 52:29
Metaphors and the Healing Power of Colors – 53:27
The True Essence of Quantum Mechanics – 54:54

   *I posted this in one of my Cancer Support Groups this morning.                       Yes it is long buuuut Rocky is The Man. Here we are 6 months into full Gerson Therapy  (with  no  chemo  or  radiation)  and  as  I am  feeling  BLESSED  for sure!  🙂

  Let’s backtrack a little ~ I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, Stage 3C    last March.  Yep,  that is one baby step away  from being terminal and to       be honest with you, I n…ever went back for more testing to see if I was in fact Stage 4 –  My treatment was the same regardless of  staging and my immune system did not need another dose of testing.

Results after 6 months???
Blood Tests – Every number is improving… EVERY. SINGLE. ONE.
Cancer Markers – Normal HEALTHY Range
Cat Scan- CLEAR
X-Rays – CLEAR
Pain – GONE
AMEN!

   So  I’m  good  right?  Well,  not completely …  As you know I still have to    battle these frustrating malignant stem cells for at least another 18 months knowing the Cancer Industry is waiting  for me to fail.  Sooo with that said, we look to America’s  favorite  underdog  for  motivation….  That’s right, ROCKY BALBOA !!!!

1. Get the Work Done

Whatever your ambition or goal, you will never succeed unless you get the work done.   You can’t just bio-hack your way around it, nor positive mindset your  way  through  it.  You  simply  have  to  do  everything,  EVERYTHING!

“You’re gonna have to go through hell, worse than any nightmare you’ve ever dreamed.  But  when  it’s  over,  I know you’ll be the one standing. You know what you have to do.  Do it. Do it!”

2. Never Quit

Rocky himself said, “Going that one more round when you don’t think you can – that’s what makes all the difference in your life.”

The ability to keep going – to never quit  in such situations is something forged within. It comes from deep within your heart and your mind and needs to be developed during life.  To  witness  this  kind  of  never — quit attitude  is rare.  Be  that  person:  It’s pretty hard to beat someone who never quits.

3. Go the Distance

Many of us have become creatures of instant gratification. We want results immediately and  often  balk  at  the  time  it takes to achieve something.  Or worse still,  we forget that sometimes a struggle is much more about the journey it takes you on, rather than the end result.

Is what you’re fighting for so important that you’re willing to go the distance?                       If you aren’t, then you are on the wrong path.

“You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard ya hit.           It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.”

4. Persistence -The ability to just keep moving ALWAYS.

“Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It’s a very mean and nasty place and I don’t care how tough you are … it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.”

  This personal trait more than anything else can make all the difference between the successes and failure in your life.  Everyone at some point has experienced a life moment where they were the underdog.  Where the odds were stacked against you,  where you had to  fight through a never-ending struggle, or where you were expected to be beaten and quit. Our individual battles may be different, but collectively … we all fight the same underdog fight, just like Rocky!!!

Get the work done, Don’t Quit, Go the distance, and be Persistent…                 As Rocky said, “That’s how winning is done!” ~  Dana DeLauter  🙂

#silentwarrior #gersonperson  #rocky
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QUESTION: I need clarification on something someone told me in another group that makes no sense at all. Here it is:

This is what I had said: I was not sick for many years before I was dx with triple negative breast cancer.  I was told the reason I didn’t get sick was because I had no immune system then and that’s why cancer took over. WTH… If I had no immune system wouldn’t I have been susceptible to everything?  Chemo wipes  out our immune systems,  that  is  why  we have to avoid the public, wear masks, etc…  I can’t wrap my brain around the notion I was never sick because I didn’t have an immune system. True/False gurus?  ~CheriHodge~

SO How Can You Never Get Sick But YOU Get Cancer… ANSWER:

  Toni Blackman one with a busy schedule whom is a member of our Facebook Group is a person  I would Love to meet someday.  Always         busy but still deals with life ordeals like the rest of  us.  Through her       music and writing shows her strength in SPIRIT !!!!

How to Write the Truth: I’m Still Learning

  The little girl in me wanted to write. Sleep in my eyes, teeth unbrushed and pillow imprints still on my face, I wanted to write but I couldn’t bring myself to sit with the word.  Sometimes your heart  wants to tell stories  that  are not yet  meant to be told. Sometimes  your  words ….  want to scream and holler  in a way  that your voice just doesn’t seem to support in this moment. This path of  vulnerability that I have chosen   and committed to pushes me to the edge of dealing with my stuff on a constant bases. There is no comfort zone except for the reality of knowing some of this self expression will stay safely filed away on my hard drive until I am ready.

     I mean,  I  wanted  to dive — deep into the waters of  friendship  and  sisterhood.      There is the  friendship with the woman who scheduled get togethers with me 9 times   and 7 of those times didn’t even bother canceling. I released the relationship. Somehow   in her mind she is a victim of something  but  I  cannot  figure out what.  I made a  few attempts  at  the  Landmark  style  completion  conversation  then  surrendered  when      I realized she wasn’t here for it. 

  Of course, I could’ve, should’ve spoken to it after the 3rd time but was still in a space     of providing more compassion for others than for I did for myself.  My time is valuable too – – yada,  yada, yada.  Some call it sucka shit  but we all go through things.  There    is the  friend  I miss,  but her envy scared the hell out of me and the  friend who was so judgmental  that it  felt like a toxic boyfriend.  So these experiences  inspired one of  my most frequent chants of the year. It’s the affirmation: I let it go, I let it all go. I take full accountability for all that has transpired and I let it go.

    Part of me would also enjoy the release of being completely naked and transparent about love,  love relationships  and matters of  the heart.  But then we have to deal with how that impacts others,  projects,  business  and  image.  One of  my  friends constantly reminds me to be mindful of my brand and intention. As a poet first and as a poet whose first pieces at 8 years old were rooted in calls for justice,  fairness and truth, this part of adulthood feels completely wack.  Why can’t we all  just have an authentic conversation and confront these issues that plague so many of our lives?  Oh,  if only it was as simple  as a conversation.

       One of the most challenging issues is the one of a cousin  who is bi-sexual  and in a   same-sex marriage. Some of the responses of family, God fearing, God loving, practicing Christian family members,  constantly  disappoints  me.  My heart has been broken more times than I can count.  I sit quietly.  I pray on it. I try not to lament on the absence of my grandma and grandpa  from this earthly plane.  I know how different our lives would be if they were still here.  Then I remind myself and little Toni that there is no time machine and my dreaming  will not bring them back to the physical.  So I speak  to them while on my knees  and while in the shower as the water hides my tears I chant again:  I let it go,    I let it all go.

   In my dreams,  I am confident enough to tackle the most personal  and painful of experiences with creativity,  spiritual maturity  and transparency but I’m not where           I want to be just yet. This is still just an activity in my mind.  Years ago  I remember sitting  in the African American Resource Center with E. Ethelbert Miller.  He was at      his desk handing me a stack of poems marked up with red pen. There were 30 pages       of text and at least 25 pieces,  but he gave me 5  that he considered to be good poems.      I suddenly realized I  was  far  from the book  I  planned on publishing that semester.         He watched both my ego and heart deflate right before his eyes as I sunk into the           old wooden chair.

    He began talking about a list of writers I should read as he set up a seat for me at a table with a stack of books with everything from Carolyn Rogers and early Don L. Lee   to Alice Walker’s prose and Larry Neal’s critiques.  There were journals from the Black Arts Movement  and  the Harlem Renaissance.  As I stood up  I could hear  the big clock outside  and  see students scurrying  across  the  yard  below.  I  remember many things Ethelbert taught me over the years ….  but that  afternoon  he talked about the need  for courage.  It  takes  courage  to expose oneself.   Exposing your joy  and  your pain,  your most sentimental feelings, your family stories  both the good and the bad, the struggles  of life, the weakness and the strengths are all a part of  the nakedness of being a writer. You may  find a  formula to become a popular writer but great writers are willing and able to write themselves naked and fully exposed on the page.

   I can still inhale and smell the scent of old paper and books in the stacks of Founders library at Howard University. I also clearly remember how heavy my spiritwas during those years. Ethelbert was a guardian angel to many of us. I am much lighter now and authentically happy,  but I am still struggling to be a great writer.  I am still learning how to write the truth, my truth.

    The blog  format is like a gym to work out  and build my muscles.  Every once in a    while I get on the scale to see where  I’m at  and today is one of  those days. Three bomb ass writing prompts came to mind  and  I punked out on each one.  I’m here laughing at myself as a way to not slip into the Virgodom of  self-critique and thoughts of I-am-not-good-enough.  Pressing  publish  on  this  post  will  serve — as  this  morning’s  creative accomplishment and thumbs up to an exercise completed.  May your day be equally as blessed.

To my friend, Carmen Belcredi,        

“…at the end, you take the lesson the life is trying to tell you.  In  my  case  it  was  that    you can’t control everything.  You need to let things happen.  The other was that the road is unknown and unwritten.” Today would have been her 40th birthday. She passed away this past Thursday; just three days shy of that milestone so many women dread. For us it was a gift, a goal.  We talked about having  “bucket list”  parties in Vegas to celebrate the big four-oh. I told her that was my dream next year and she said she wouldn’t miss it.

When I  joined support groups two – and – a half years ago, I had an instant connection with Carmen. Although we were never able to meet in person, she has had a tremendous impact on my life.  We compared stories of  misdiagnosis  and receiving such bleak news at such  a young age.  She shared with me  that she was 16 when she  first started having colon cancer symptoms. Both of her parents had colon cancer, yet her doctors brushed it off.

Her doctor said she could wait until 40 for a scope. She said “I try not to and have not   let anger and upset go.  It is what it is.  I can’t go back.” She was only  36 when she was diagnosed, stage IV. We shared so many similarities. I was in my late teens when I first had symptoms also,  and  just like her  I tried to get my doctors to listen,  without avail.    We were both 36  and stage IV  when diagnosed.  She was a mother to an eleven month old, I was a mom to a 6 month and 2 ½ year old.

We were both professional women, advocates, into holistic and integrative therapies alongside cutting edge medical technology. She was diagnosed almost exactly one year before I was, yet her progression of the disease went in a very different direction. Even   if the cards were not stacked in her favor, she always had an exceptional drive to fight. 

She had oncologists tell her,  in her words,  “They’ve never had a patient like me and  that   I really need to give myself credit for everything I have done and am doing. I think he was trying to tell me that most ( patients) are gone by now.  He had tears in his eyes.   It was very touching. We even hugged, lol.” 

We also shared a very spiritual connection. We were both seeking answers as to “why”   we were given this challenge in life. She shared with me that she was once approached by  a healer.  She said, “…I believe he knew he couldn’t heal me.  We talked about why these things happen.  What is the lesson?  He whispered to me that the lesson is for others and not for me, and he looked sad.” 

After this she found an inner peace that helped her cope with this disease she hated.     She said, “It’s amazing how at peace you can feel amidst the storm of this diagnosis…        I do think the universe sends you what you need. You just need to have your eyes and heart open to see and receive it.” 

Carmen was the epitome of strength & beauty.  I will miss her eloquence, compassion, brilliant mind, and source of  comfort.  I  will  miss  her  friendship.  I will miss her texts telling me she was listening to the “mix tape” I sent her with the top down in her Porsche (which she encouraged me to buy…  just saying!!)  She  was  working  to “…. start a non-profit that would provide access to alternative meds for those who can’t access or afford, and to fund clinical trials of natural meds.”  With everything she was going through, she constantly thought of others and was always the  first to message me the week of  scans  or tests.

She had a port infection and a severe reaction to the new chemo cocktail they came        up with. It happened so fast. People like Rosa and Carmen don’t come along every day. Intelligent, enlightened and have beautiful, giving souls.  They will be missed.  Carmen had her tumor tested  and it came back as compatible with.  Breast cancer  and  Kinsey cancer drug.  It  all  went  downhill  from  there.  If  I’m  ever  faced  with chemo again,      I don’t think I’ll do it.

Over  the  past  two years — we had become close,  as  people who are  facing the same similar hard truths would. We bonded over children, the emotional hurt we feel when the thought of leaving them enters our minds. She shared how she believed her daughter had “chosen” her for a mother.  I think she selected the most special angel here on earth. Even in her last days, she encouraged me to keep living, to keep enjoying life, even when those around us are struggling. She said, “Stay focused on the positive, feel all the joy and love you can.  You will always think about it  (cancer),  but you’re doing well in this moment and you need to focus on that. It’s just so hard.

The more you open yourself to be healed and to live in the moment, the more it can     hurt when it  feels like everyone is suffering….  Get out there and live…. I get that it is bittersweet, but focus on you and how you feel. We are all in this; it’s the good and the bad that gets us through.  Knowing you are doing well actually  helps me get through some days. At least someone is winning. It takes a little bit of hope to get us through.”

“Today is a good day. The weather has finally changed. My magnolia tree is in bloom and it’s so beautiful.  A reminder of the strength of life and rebirth of spring.  Maybe you should get a Porsche.  Why not??”  I  Love you, Carmen.  I Hope  you’re riding around in perpetual spring with the top down. And also Thank you for all you taught me about life, resilience and hope. You are one of  the most exceptional humans I’ve ever encountered.     I will miss you more than you know. XO!  

Sincerely,

Dawn Eicher  ♥¸.•°*”˜˜”*°•.

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